why i do what i do
one of the biggest questions i get is why i modify my body, what drives me to change my body so dramatical
well the answer is not that simple
the
main thing is it makes me happy, first and fore most it makes me feel
beautiful and happy in my own skin, however thats not the only reason
a
lot of things i just think are pretty, and are purely aesthetics, just
an adornment to my already heavily decorated body, something to enhance
or go with things i already have
its basically just how i feel i
should look, when i see myself in my mind this is how i see myself, it
makes me feel whole and complete, where some people will say the are
adding to there body etc etc i feel i was born incomplete and through
modification i am fixing that, making my external appearance fit more
closely with my internal one, my internal appearance is not a fully
clear one to me all the time, its constantly evolving, or not
necessarily evolving but making itself more clear to me as time goes
on, which is where the drive to get more modification comes from
to
a lot of people what i do is "extreme" or whatever you might want to
call it, but to me its just right, its not about being the biggest, or
having the most or the first to do something, its just about making
myself happy
i like to see how far i can push my body at times,
its sort of a hobby to see how far i can go with things, to test how
strong my body really is and how much it really can take, to know the
boundaries of the human body
as for "going to far" all i can say
its my life, my time ,my money, and my body and ill do whatever the
fuck i want with it and to hell with anyone that says otherwise
i
could care less what anyone thinks about me both positively or
negatively, i will still continue to do what i do regardless, don't get
me wrong its nice to get message from people that enjoy what i have
done or at least appreciate the drive but even without them i would
continue on this journey, cause its so fulfilling to me in every way
possible, there is nothing that has brought a smile to my face more
then body modification
on the same plane, i am an artist through
and through i live and breath art so my body reflects that premise its
a performance art piece at times my body is my ultimate art piece that
is ever evolving, it will never be done it will always be a work in
progress and the thought of that makes me smile
thats about as
far as i care to go into the motivations behind my body modification
practices at the moment, hopefully it sheds some light on the subject
and answer some questions
thank you
Pauly Unstoppable